My emotional ball of greatness!

Well hasn’t it been a while my lovelies, and I wish I could go into detail as to why blogging has not taken priority but the whole blog would be about that! Let’s just say life, work stress and kitchen ceilings have been the main reasons. I actually wrote this post a while ago and just not posted it. It has some similar content to the last but I’m posting it anyway. I look 10 years older than the last blog and feel like I’m living in a 90 year olds body sometimes but onwards and upwards it is…….

Even in the craziness I can always count on the ninja to keep me going with smiles, giggles, cuddles and the ever so wonderful face farts!!!!!

So how did this little human become so sensitive and mature enough to deal with and understand even the most difficult situations that life throws at you?

As a parent, I have always said that I would always be honest with the ninja (obviously, this does not include the whole Santa, Bunny and fairy events as I believe these should be kept going for as long as possible #contradiction oops!) as I would always want her to be honest with me. I strive to be the type of mum that she can turn to when in need which you would think would be an easy task….pah yeah right!!!!! If she doesn’t want to tell me something she will not (thanks for the stubbornness dad!) which absolutely breaks my heart to think she thinks she can’t. All this being said, she is very in touch with her emotions stemming from suffering the loss of a close family member at the age of 4. We were so open with her explaining very carefully the situation answering all of her questions until she was content with the answers. She would get very upset on many occasions (and still does) and sometimes closes up then other times wants to speak about it. Luckily school offered a little counselling group which was amazing and let her open up about how she felt and since then we have been harvesting this little emotional (far too old for her years) ball of greatness!

It is now becoming increasingly apparent that these emotions are manifesting and now the questions are nonstop (very much like the teen attitude) and she is no longer content with just the one answer, she now has to reword the question about three times but I can start to feel my voice getting louder (please just give my ears a rest babe!).  These emotions she is developing are like a little homing beacon for when I am not feeling my best as she can sense whatever it is I am feeling (which has been like a rollercoaster recently) and within a split second she is tending to my needs (bless!). 

Out of all the jobs I am currently holding/starting, this is the one that I live for, the one that makes me whole and the one I will strive to do my best at.

I get everything from cuddles to what’s wrongs to can I helps to the sad little eyes at the thought of mum being upset but at the other end of the scale I also get the I’m not doing that’s to its not fares to for god sakes (just delightful).

I have a little rollercoaster in the form of an 8 yr old ninja and there’s nothing I can do about it except continue to love her the way I do. (Insert love heart emoji eyes here).
Not sure whether I’ve mentioned this before but I’m going to say it again and that is being a mummy is the hardest job in the world yet the most rewarding amazing job any woman could ask for.

Thank you for reading beautiful people.

Big hugs xxxxxxxx